I Want It All (Still)

Can You Really Have It All?

Bonnie is six now.
Six years of cheeky smiles, tangled hair, little hands reaching for mine.

And five years since I began Maximum Growth.

I remember wondering how I could possibly hold all of it:
Running a business.
Consulting privately.
Being a Mum.
Being in a relationship.
Showing up for my friendships.
Looking after myself.

It wasn’t just how I would do it.
It was, “Can I actually hold all of this without something falling apart?”

Secretly, I Wanted It All

Not in the polished, airbrushed way.
But in the real, grounded, present way.

I didn’t want to sacrifice motherhood to lead.
Or silence my ambition to be present at bedtime.
I wanted to live fully inside my values — not rank them.

To be a mother.
A founder.
A student of life.
A woman building something real and meaningful.

Here’s What I’ve Learned

Wanting it all doesn’t mean doing it all.

It means letting go of perfect timelines.
Of what should be done by now.
Of what success has to look like.

If a launch takes 6 months longer because I prioritised my daughter, my health, or a friend in crisis, that’s not a delay.
That’s alignment.

It’s choosing to grow at a pace that honours the whole human I am and not just the part that performs.

Structure Creates Space

I don’t do “balance.”

But I do structure.

Because without it, everything blurs and I disappear into the noise.

So I block out space:

For work.
For movement.
For stillness.
For the people I love.

Because having it all isn’t about pushing harder or squeezing more in.

It’s about doing it with intention.

Tanya Cross